It's been 4 months.

It has been 4 months since we welcomed our beautiful baby girls into this world. It's been 4 months since we said goodbye to our beautiful Ella. I still cant believe that it's been that long. We should've had a house full of kids..instead I have 2 angels at home, and 2 angels watching over me and mine. Ugh...I knew dealing with their deaths would be hard, but everytime the 28th rolls around, it knocks me in the gut, again and again. It also doesnt help that I am still healing physically from it. Every now and then, I get up and get a burning pain in my abdomin. I'm told its normal. I just wish I was back to normal.